I have written about getting diagnosed with Clinical Depression and the build up to it but I’ve never really spoke about living with mental health I’ve touched a bit about it with anxiety but I’ve never really spoken about my coping mechanism, how I reflex and my support network so in this blog I will talk about.
I’m sometimes think that people look on my social media Instagram (jakehumphries14) Twitter (jakehumhries1) and think he posts about having depression but goes to football and boxing and goes to loads of cool events also takes a selfie with famous people or sees rare pictures of me going out with friends. But that’s just me on a good day the truth is having depression is hard I sometimes wake up some days and wish I could stay in bed sometimes and not face the world, i ave to took 2 types of medication which makes me feel so weak, tied and drugged up. Because of the medication I wake up late and fall back asleep in the middle of the afternoon and I go to bed early. With my anxiety I get nervous so quickly I’m scared of tube platforms and get so never and I get shakier so fast,I also worry about the smallest thing I can overthink things and get worked up so fast. My typical week If I’m not going to football or events is two afternoons a week volunteering which I spoke about in my last blog and the remaining 5 days is just being a home and walking my dog Rolo and thinking of blogposts to write, speaking to my friends( which I’ll come onto in A bit) I enjoy walking in my spare time I also enjoy looking at pictures of stream trains, reading news articles online, watching football and formula one I also just randomly google random things. But living with mental health is hard and you feel people don’t understand how you feel it is a daily battle but it’s battle you have to win, I know I’ve spoken about my defeats with this battle but this blog post is not about that.
My coping mechanism is volunteering to be honest I really enjoy it and they are so nice and understanding of my mental health I have a brilliant line manager Bonnie who has been so understanding of my mental health and I enjoy speaking to.As I’ve just spoken about what I enjoy is also my coping mechanism and also writing this blog is also a coping mechanism it a release of my pain and feels that just build up, I feel unleashed when I’m writing blogs like this, when I’m stressed I like to go for a little walk around the blog or a long walk along the seafront it just clears my head. I also enjoy speaking to my family about my problems my mum and dad sister my Lois and my brother Mitchell are so understanding and loving and my cousin Stacey always tells me the truth when I put a problem to her, my nan is always understanding and listens to me and My friends from the BPRL a online race league I use to race in till I just became rubbish at the game who I didn’t speak to for a few months who when I first wrote about my struggles with mental health reached out to me and have been brilliant (Sean,Karl, Rees, Josh mills ,Matteo and taro ) make me laugh and a special mention to my two best friends from the BPRL Josh Saban and Alex Fearon who were there for me in the dark days and I have some great experiences and memories with, Being part of the BPRL still is great we meet up at the British Grand Prix and we have a great laugh and recently 10 of us went go-karting and walked round London and we had a great time together and took loads of pictures which are on my Facebook account. Becca and Ben from school have been amazing Becca is traveling the world and I enjoy talking to her and Ben is a great support to me in so many ways. David is a great Friend too we are planning to go to the Anthony Joshua fight together and my friend Dan I enjoy are banter about Arsenal vs Chelsea I know I’ve written two blog posts about family and friends but these people are my coping mechanism and my loving support network that I have to cope with my mental health. I also have a great friendship with a lady called Fenella who visited me so much in hospital and always tells me the truth even when it’s not what I want to hear and I’m grateful to her my friends and family are great and are my rock in many ways .
I know I haven’t spoken about getting treatment for depression in this blog but once the doctors think you mentally better your left to face the world on your own and in my case I’m lucky to have a great support network behind me, but my day to day life is a Challenge I struggle so much from the side affects of my medication to coping on a bad day when sometimes I feel useless and want to spend all day in bed and Not wanting to face the world but the hard truth in which I get told and I tell me self you can’t lock you self away and Block out the world it’s not healthy or go for you. People think oh they have depression it’s just about taking pills and they get over this but the truth so many depression and anxiety like mine won’t go away and they are stuck and Have to face the battle of life and deal with the cards they are handed to them. You just have to get up off your arse and win the battle and then you will win the war that is your life.
Thank you for reading this blog post I know it's been a long one but it's something I've wanted to write for some and once again thanks to my family and friends for their love and support I don't plan to write many blog posts I'll try to write once a month but if i don't feel it i won't write because i wouldn't feel passionate about it.you can follow my adventures on social media on instagram @jakehumphries14 and on Twitter @jakehumphries1 thank you again for reading this blog
I’m sometimes think that people look on my social media Instagram (jakehumphries14) Twitter (jakehumhries1) and think he posts about having depression but goes to football and boxing and goes to loads of cool events also takes a selfie with famous people or sees rare pictures of me going out with friends. But that’s just me on a good day the truth is having depression is hard I sometimes wake up some days and wish I could stay in bed sometimes and not face the world, i ave to took 2 types of medication which makes me feel so weak, tied and drugged up. Because of the medication I wake up late and fall back asleep in the middle of the afternoon and I go to bed early. With my anxiety I get nervous so quickly I’m scared of tube platforms and get so never and I get shakier so fast,I also worry about the smallest thing I can overthink things and get worked up so fast. My typical week If I’m not going to football or events is two afternoons a week volunteering which I spoke about in my last blog and the remaining 5 days is just being a home and walking my dog Rolo and thinking of blogposts to write, speaking to my friends( which I’ll come onto in A bit) I enjoy walking in my spare time I also enjoy looking at pictures of stream trains, reading news articles online, watching football and formula one I also just randomly google random things. But living with mental health is hard and you feel people don’t understand how you feel it is a daily battle but it’s battle you have to win, I know I’ve spoken about my defeats with this battle but this blog post is not about that.
My coping mechanism is volunteering to be honest I really enjoy it and they are so nice and understanding of my mental health I have a brilliant line manager Bonnie who has been so understanding of my mental health and I enjoy speaking to.As I’ve just spoken about what I enjoy is also my coping mechanism and also writing this blog is also a coping mechanism it a release of my pain and feels that just build up, I feel unleashed when I’m writing blogs like this, when I’m stressed I like to go for a little walk around the blog or a long walk along the seafront it just clears my head. I also enjoy speaking to my family about my problems my mum and dad sister my Lois and my brother Mitchell are so understanding and loving and my cousin Stacey always tells me the truth when I put a problem to her, my nan is always understanding and listens to me and My friends from the BPRL a online race league I use to race in till I just became rubbish at the game who I didn’t speak to for a few months who when I first wrote about my struggles with mental health reached out to me and have been brilliant (Sean,Karl, Rees, Josh mills ,Matteo and taro ) make me laugh and a special mention to my two best friends from the BPRL Josh Saban and Alex Fearon who were there for me in the dark days and I have some great experiences and memories with, Being part of the BPRL still is great we meet up at the British Grand Prix and we have a great laugh and recently 10 of us went go-karting and walked round London and we had a great time together and took loads of pictures which are on my Facebook account. Becca and Ben from school have been amazing Becca is traveling the world and I enjoy talking to her and Ben is a great support to me in so many ways. David is a great Friend too we are planning to go to the Anthony Joshua fight together and my friend Dan I enjoy are banter about Arsenal vs Chelsea I know I’ve written two blog posts about family and friends but these people are my coping mechanism and my loving support network that I have to cope with my mental health. I also have a great friendship with a lady called Fenella who visited me so much in hospital and always tells me the truth even when it’s not what I want to hear and I’m grateful to her my friends and family are great and are my rock in many ways .
I know I haven’t spoken about getting treatment for depression in this blog but once the doctors think you mentally better your left to face the world on your own and in my case I’m lucky to have a great support network behind me, but my day to day life is a Challenge I struggle so much from the side affects of my medication to coping on a bad day when sometimes I feel useless and want to spend all day in bed and Not wanting to face the world but the hard truth in which I get told and I tell me self you can’t lock you self away and Block out the world it’s not healthy or go for you. People think oh they have depression it’s just about taking pills and they get over this but the truth so many depression and anxiety like mine won’t go away and they are stuck and Have to face the battle of life and deal with the cards they are handed to them. You just have to get up off your arse and win the battle and then you will win the war that is your life.
Thank you for reading this blog post I know it's been a long one but it's something I've wanted to write for some and once again thanks to my family and friends for their love and support I don't plan to write many blog posts I'll try to write once a month but if i don't feel it i won't write because i wouldn't feel passionate about it.you can follow my adventures on social media on instagram @jakehumphries14 and on Twitter @jakehumphries1 thank you again for reading this blog
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