2016

so with today being 31st December I thought I should write one finally blog post for 2016 with 2016 being a rather bad me for me personally which I'll talk about in more detail in this post.

2016 started off badly for me with the BBC confirming that Doctor Who would not be broadcasted as a series in 2016 only one Christmas also my  I started a new job in a call centre which I was forced to do otherwise I would have lost my JSA, I hated every moment of it I use to have travel to Chelmsford twice a week earning minimum wage, I use to do outbound calls to a client list asking them questions but most of the time I faced angry clients who were unhappy with the company I hated every moment of it, On my final day before I quit the job one client threatened  to take me personally to court for doing the job I hated I just got my stuff got up said I quit to my boss and left knowing I wouldn't be able to claim JSA for 6 months I got on the train back to Clacton feeling worthless and hating everything and the world it was the first time in 2016 I thought about taking my own life after quitting my job I questioned my worthfulness and the point of me living. The next few months were a struggle worrying about money and struggling to find work.

During the struggle months as I like to call them I went to Cardiff in Wales were they film Doctor Who to tour the Tardis set which as a massive Doctor who fan I loved every moment of touring the set, A week later I got to go watch one of my favourite shows The last leg be recorded live in London which I loved my face even featured for a secound on the show. April was the first time I tried and failed in committing suicide which I won't go into much detail since I did this in my first blog and moving down to London and my other attempts of suicide I've already covered in my first blog so I won't go over it again. After that I spent time on a mental health ward which I felt was good for me I meet some nice people and the staff were lovely and caring, During this time we had the EU referendum which Britain voted the EU and David Cameron resigned as Prime minister of the united kingdom I left the mental health ward a few days before my 21st birthday on my 21st birthday I went on a tour of the emirates stadium, during this time I while I was in hospital I missed the deadline to renew my membership to arsenal so Arsenal was nice enough to allow me to renew my membership late.

July I went to the British Grand Prix where I got to meet my friends who I use to race online with I like to go the British grand Prix every year as a massive f1 I love it. I also attended London anniversary games athletics were I got to see Usain Bolt run the 200m sadly I won't be able to go next year due to date being the same day as the British grand Prix, during the summer I mainly watched to Olympics and Paralympics and I loved every moment of it's my main sports of love are athletics and both forms of cycling,In September I went to a charity Arsenal legends match against AC Millan which Arsenal won 4-2 later in the month I went to Arsenal vs Chelsea before the Match I was lucky enough to meet Ian Wright and at Half time I meet the co-host of the last leg Alex Brooker Arsenal went on to win the match 3-0. In October I went to see one of my favourite comedians and host of the last leg Adam Hills stand up gig and was lucky enough to meet him after his show. also In October I went to see Team GB victory display in London when I got home I had a letter in the post from Arsene Wenger manager of Arsenal Football Club which was so positive I've framed it in my bedroom I was also invited to watch the Teams come in for Arsenal vs Reading in the League Cup this is where I meet Freddie Ljungberg an Arsenal legend, I've been to a few arsenal game in this early part of the season.  I also attended the last leg tv recording again and was seen on TV at the end of the episode .the end part of my year has been quiet I've been thinking about what I want to do in the future.

2016 has been a rather bad year for me with some good moment but worldwide we have had the deaths of a lot of famous people the rise of Donald trump, Leicester city winning the premier league and Brexit which we won't know more about until we leave the EU it could be a positive thing for the UK we just don't know yet.

Thank you for reading my blog over the course of this year and all the nice comments and private messages I've received I have been so grateful for these messages of support I hope 2017 will be a great year for me personally I am going to an Arsenal game on new years day and hope to attend a few more Arsenal games, I will be attending Anthony Joshua vs Wladimir Klitschko fight at Wembley stadium, I hope to attend the 2017 Britsih Grand Prix and I also have a ticket to the 200m finals of the  world athletics championships in London one of Usain Bolts Last Races I am a huge fan of Bolt. And I hope finally to find a job and earn my own way in the world.

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Bullying

This is a blog I've wanted to write for a bit now in this blog post I'll talk about my experiences of bullying before I start I won't name names because I've been told by someone who's opinions I regard highly that people can change and bullies can turn out to be nice people so maybe that might be true.

I never experienced bullying really in primary school and at my first secondary school because I knew people but when I moved to Clacton County High school is when I started to experience bullying on my first day with comments about my ears and my teeth and my weight which made me want to cry and I wanted to go back to my old school on my first week with all the horrible  name calling and I was tripped up and laughed at all the time I just use to seat at the back of the class and didn't speak to anyone and I had no friends. Year 7 was hard I only had a few friends and was still subject to name calling towards the end of the year was one of the worst things that will happen to me I just got changed for PE I was waiting outside to go into the gym when I was talking to my friends about a football match that had taken place the night before when a group of students decided to pull my PE shorts and my underwear and my private parts was exposed to my whole PE class and a group of girls who were walking past to their PE class I was horrified and never wanted to go back to school again the punishment the students was light and the students go off lightly and the effects lasted a long time, comments about my penis with my whole year group making comments the rest of year 7 was just awful name calling and now comments about my weight and now my private parts.

Year 8 was no better it turned out people don't grow up over the summer things become more physically getting punched well walking in the corridors twice in year 8 I was beaten up for trying to stand up for myself, year 9 was sort of the same the bullying did get lighter nothing serious happened. Year 10 was when it got worse the bullying was none stop it got to a point where I use to bunk school and classes fake being sick to avoid going to school I had blue tic put in my hair kicked and punched none stop, name calling like retard and Spastic relating to me have Aspergers and not acting like everyone else and for the 2nd time I had my pants pulled down but this time in a classroom, one dream of mine was to become a football referee but when people found out i got on course 3 people started to take the piss and made none stop comments, After this I first thought about taking my own life after this I asked the school to go on an education programme where I only go to school one day a week and a college one day and the rest of the time on work experience after going on the bullying moved to facebook and Xbox live.

After leaving school the bullying really stopped I wonder sometimes if the people who use to bully me every think of their actions and if they have guts to say sorry for making my life hell. Most of my time I use to dream that The Doctor a TV character from Doctor Who and the Tardis was real and I could follow the doctor in running away as you can tell I'm a huge Doctor who fan.

Sorry these blog posts are becoming once a month I'm struggling to find things to write about I hope to write when I find a subject.
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