2017

so I wrote something like this Last year in 2016 so I thought I’ll write something like this again so I start on news years day and I attended the Arsenal Vs crystal palac and saw olivier giroud scorpion goal during the year I've attended many Arsenal games and meet Alex Brooker again from The Last Leg on channel 4. I will go onto the North London derby later in the blog I also went to Wembley twice to watch Arsenal In the Fa cup semi-final against man city which Arsenal won in Extra time and in then to watch Arsenal vs Chelsea in the community shield which Arsenal won on penalties. It was a mixed year For me as arsenal fan they won the FA cup which I was very happy about but finished 5th meaning missing out on champions league football.

I come onto Mental Health I thought I was over depression so I stopped taking my medication but it turned out I had clinical depression it wasn't helped by someone who I thought was my friend but they were just messing me round mentally. I revived treatment under the home treatment team which I preferred because I wanted to go the F1 British grand prix the next day which I'll come onto when I talk formula one I now feel better about myself mentally and have a strong support network.

In April I lived a childhood dream of riding the Flying Scotsman a train I saw pictures of since I was a little boy which I've talked about in a previous blog post I also got to see some of Yorkshire which was beautiful I saw a village that I fell in love with called Haworth. In May I went to my first London theatre show called don juan in soh starting my favourite actor David Tennant who I was delighted I got to meet after the show when I went to the backstage door to meet him which I was so happy about, in June I celebrated my 22nd birthday. In F1 terms it got off to good start for me as a Vettel fan with 5 wins over the course of the season but didn't result in the title but usually I attended the British grand prix and meet up with my friends at Silverstone and had a brilliant day despite the result for Vettel despite only having just had my mental health assessment the day before.

I also attended my first boxing fight I've been watching Anthony Joshua on TV since the Olympics 2012 and I went to Wembley Stadium to watch Anthony Joshua vs Wladimir Klitschko which was an amazing evening in terms of atmospher and the fight was amazing, in between one of the undercard fights I picked up a leaflet for an evening with Anthony Joshua and I paid for the meet and greet up opinion and I had a great evening Anthony was so nice and friendly. I then went to my 2nd fight anthony joshua vs carlo takem fight with my two best friends and I had a good time. I also got to meet my childhood hero Thierry Henry again who I've had a poster of when I was little boy he was nice and I got a selfie with him arsenal also won the match 2-0 against Tottenham so I went home very happy.

I had a good time meeting up with old school friends this year and meet some famous people along the way I've had a great 2017 so I've put the selfies on my Instagram page(jakehumphries14) I've got some big plans for my 2018 tickets to see John Bishop again, going go-karting with my friends and a few arsenal matches and I'm going to announce my big project later in January or February I hope you can follow my advantages on twitter jakehumphries1 and on Instagram jakehumphries14. Thank you for reading my blog in 2017 and I'm looking forward to posting more in 2018

My dealings with mental health services

As I've said in previous blog posts I suffer from depression and have terrible anxiety and in this blog, I would like to talk about mental health services and how I believe there could more to be done to offer people who suffer from mental health.

I will start this blog when I first believed I was suffering from depression I first saw a GP in 2015 and they weren't helpful they just asked me to self-refer to mental health and wasn't told what to do next. I'm not going to go into details about my depression in this blog its already been covered. So I move on to 2016 when I went to stay with my uncle and wasn't with a GP and I wrote a Facebook post about wanting to kill myself and someone called the police and I was placed under a section 135 and I was taken to a mental health place but when I was taken there I was made to feel like a criminal I was locked in a room where the windows were covered up it felt cold. I was cold and I had my mobile phone was taken from me, the staff were rude and cold and when I asked to speak to a lawyer I was told I didn't have that right I was suffering from a mental health problem but the staff there made me feel like a common criminal. I was let go after a few hours there with no offer of support they just they would write to my GP but when I went to my GP and they failed to write to my GP

So a few days later my uncle took me to A&E and the staff were really nice and they got me an appointment with mental health specialist but when I travelled up to the place I was told because I didn't have a GP in the local area I wouldn't be offered any help so I travelled back down to Clacton where I live and I saw my GP like I said the mental health place in Dagenham didn't tell my GP about the section and I was finally put on antidepressants and referred to mental health services. and I was given an appointment the next day which was good and the staff were really nice. But after I few days I got worse and I wanted to kill myself and I rang 111 and the staff were really helpful and I was asked to go to A&E and I was admitted to mental health ward called the peter Bruff ward as a voluntary patient. My time on the ward was nice the staff on the ward were nice but you never really spoke to a specialist about how you felt and why you were there you were left to your own devices, towards the end I meet my aftercare nurse from the specialist mental health team and she was so nice and I was under the specialist mental health team until March 2017 and she was so supportive and nice and I was sad when I was discharged from the specialist mental health service.

I fast word to my 2nd suicide attempt and my family was asked by the police to go to A&E once again I will not go into much detail due to this being covered in a previous post, and the mental health specialist was so nice and friendly we spoke for an hour and he told me why I should take my medication and to see my GP to get my prescription sorted out. I was given an appointment the next day to see my GP but I wasn't referred to a specialist. After a few weeks I got worse and just wanted to end it all I went to my Gp and he said there was nothing else he could do, I remembered this card that I was given when I was at A&E and I called this number for the crisis team and I was given an appointment for a few days but when I still felt that bad I just wanted to end it now my mum called the Crisis team back and they gave me an emergency appointment for the next day. I had my assignment and They recommend I should go under the home treatment team and the staff were so nice but kept asking the same questions so I grow frustrated With them towards the end. But when I was discharged I was offered no support and no information on what to do next so I felt like a fish out of water.

Before I get any messages I'm not attacking the NHS I'm a firm supporter of the NHS and was grateful to NHS for their support they offered me but I believe more could be done more to help people with mental health and in the coming weeks I hope to announce a project I've been working on for a few weeks and I will announce it on this blog and my social media first.

Thank you for reading this blog you can follow me on Instagram for my advantages @jakehumphries14 and twitter JakeHumphries1. 

Anxiety

I have spoken in the past about my issues with depression and hinted towards my issues with anxiety but in this post, i'll talk more about my issues with anxiety in this blog post.

when I was younger I was always nervous and scared of the littlest things but as I've got worse my anxiety has taken over a lot with the depression, I get anxious very quickly now some days I'm too nervous to even answer the phone.When I walking down a street the sound of a car horn can make me jump and I get all nervous and scared.I can just get anxious over a little thing something in the news, the phone ringing, someone calling me in street and I'm just in general scared of the littlest thing.

 My anxiety also affects my depression I was suffering from it badly one the day I was attending John Bishop I was debating whether to attend.I  get so nervous even riding the London Underground I don't like waiting on the platform and when I'm waiting I wait at the back of the platform because I'm scared of the tracks.

I also suffer terribly from social anxiety I get nervous in large and small groups I get nervous when I meeting new people, Because of this I tend to not talk to people when I go to events and football matches but if someone talks to me I'm not rude and I speak to them but I get very nervous that's why I chose to have a small group of close friends. when I was doing volunteering for Douglas Carswell I got very nervous speaking to members of the public that's why I choose not to do canvassing for him and just delivered leaflets.As I've said in the past I was made to work in a call centre I hated having to ringing clients on a list I got so nervous and got so scared when clients use to unload their problems on me and I get so nervous and scared I just wanted to cry some days in that job because I had to deal with so many random people in a day. I just wish sometimes I didn't feel so anxious around people and I hope to find a way around this issue one day but it could take some time I just fell so weird when I meet new people. Even at my volunteering job at a community centre I sit on reception and meet and greet and to be honest it's really helping me with my anxiety and I feel this could be a route to helping over coming to this issue but I still get nervous but I believe this helping me.

 I hope one day I can overcome anxiety and social anxiety and I believe volunteering and believing in myself  I can overcome this. Thank you for reading this blog you can follow me on Instagram jakehumphries14 and Twitter jakehumphries1 I am also on snapchat at jakef1-95