Vlogging

Hello As many people are aware if you follow me on social media I've just launched a vlog page on facebook and I thought I should let followers of the blog know I will continue writing articles for the blog I aim to write a blog once month but please don’t hold me to that.

I will reopen old subjects on the vlog that I’ve aready talked about in the blog like depression and having Aspergers and other subjects I’ve discussed on the blog.but having a vlog I will be able to go into more detail and open up a bit more. I will be posting my vlogs on youtube and on my facebook page https://www.facebook.com/Jake-Humphries-blog-Vlog-141956873148398/ so please like my facebook page or type jake Humphries blog & vlog into facebook,

I know this blog is a short blog but this is only small blog to announce the vlog please could you Like my page and I'll be uploading my first serious vlog about mental health in the next few days. If you want to follow my journey please like my facebook page jake Humphries blog&vlog, instagram jakehumphries14 and on Twitter jakehumphries1 so please like my social media for my journey.

Living with mental health

I have written about getting diagnosed with Clinical Depression and the build up to it but I’ve never really spoke about living with mental health I’ve touched a bit about it with anxiety but I’ve never really spoken about my coping mechanism, how I reflex and my support network so in this blog I will talk about.

I’m sometimes think that people look on my social media Instagram (jakehumphries14) Twitter (jakehumhries1) and think he posts about having depression but goes to football and boxing and goes to loads of cool events also takes a selfie with famous people or sees rare pictures of me going out with friends. But that’s just me on a good day the truth is having depression is hard I sometimes wake up some days and wish I could stay in bed sometimes and not face the world, i ave to took 2 types of medication which makes me feel so weak, tied and drugged up. Because of the medication I wake up late and fall back asleep in the middle of the afternoon and I go to bed early. With my anxiety I get nervous so quickly I’m scared of tube platforms and get so never and I get shakier so fast,I also worry about the smallest thing I can overthink things and get worked up so fast. My typical week If I’m not going to football or events is two afternoons a week volunteering which I spoke about in my last blog and the remaining 5 days is just being a home and walking my dog Rolo and thinking of blogposts to write, speaking to my friends( which I’ll come onto in A bit) I enjoy walking in my spare time I also enjoy looking at pictures of stream trains, reading news articles online, watching football and formula one I also just randomly google random things. But living with mental health is hard and you feel people don’t understand how you feel it is a daily battle but it’s battle you have to win, I know I’ve spoken about my defeats with this battle but this blog post is not about that.

My coping mechanism is volunteering to be honest I really enjoy it and they are so nice and understanding of my mental health I have a brilliant line manager Bonnie who has been so understanding of my mental health and I enjoy speaking to.As I’ve just spoken about what I enjoy is also my coping mechanism and also writing this blog is also a coping mechanism it a release of my pain and feels that just build up, I feel unleashed when I’m writing blogs like this, when I’m stressed I like to go for a little walk around the blog or a long walk along the seafront it just clears my head. I also enjoy speaking to my family about my problems my mum and dad sister my Lois and my brother Mitchell are so understanding and loving and my cousin Stacey always tells me the truth when I put a problem to her, my nan is always understanding and listens to me and   My friends from the BPRL a online race league I use to race in till I just became rubbish at the game who I didn’t speak to for a few months who when I first wrote about my struggles with mental health reached out to me and have been brilliant (Sean,Karl, Rees, Josh mills ,Matteo and taro ) make me laugh and a special mention to my two best friends from the BPRL Josh Saban and Alex Fearon who were there for me in the dark days and I have some great experiences and memories with, Being part of the BPRL still is great we meet up at the British Grand Prix and we have a great laugh and recently 10 of us went go-karting and walked round London and we had a great time together and took loads of pictures which are on my Facebook account. Becca and Ben from school have been amazing Becca is traveling the world and I enjoy talking to her and Ben is a great support to me in so many ways. David is a great Friend too we are planning to go to the Anthony Joshua fight together and my friend Dan I enjoy are banter about Arsenal vs Chelsea I know I’ve written two blog posts about family and friends but these people are my coping mechanism and my loving support network that I have to cope with my mental health. I also have a great friendship with a lady called Fenella who visited me so much in hospital and always tells me the truth even when it’s not what I want to hear and I’m grateful to her my friends and family are great and are my rock in many ways .

I know I haven’t spoken about getting treatment for depression in this blog but once the doctors think you mentally better your left to face the world on your own and in my case I’m lucky to have a great support network behind me, but my day to day life is a Challenge I struggle so much from the side affects of my medication to coping on a bad day when sometimes I feel useless and want to spend all day in bed and Not wanting to face the world but the hard truth in which I get told and I tell me self you can’t lock you self away and Block out the world it’s not healthy or go for you. People think oh they have depression it’s just about taking pills and they get over this but the truth so many depression and anxiety like mine won’t go away and they are stuck and Have to face the battle of life and deal with the cards they are handed to them. You just have to get up off your arse and win the battle and then you will win the war that is your life.

Thank you for reading this blog post I know it's been a long one but it's something I've wanted to write for some and once again thanks to my family and friends for their love and support I don't plan to write many blog posts I'll try to write once a month but if i don't feel it i won't write because i wouldn't feel passionate about it.you can follow my adventures on social media on instagram @jakehumphries14 and on Twitter @jakehumphries1 thank you again for reading this blog

Volunteering

I have spoken briefly about volunteering in pervious blog posts so in this blog I’m going to talk about  my experiences of volunteering and how it has helped me mentally.

After leaving the mental health ward I was at a lose on what to do with my time and when I first meet my mental health nurse she recommended I do some volunteering work so I first a good friend of mine found me a volunteering job in frinton working in a charity shop but I only lasted a month I wasn’t challenged mentaly and I was stuck doing boring jobs also they wasn’t impressed when I took a day off to buy tickets to the Anthony Joshua vs Wladimir Klitschko fight so but during that time my mental health nurse found me a place to apply at and that place was Community Voluntary Services Tendring.but when I got to the vole at CVST I chose to leave because the days clashed.

I had my interview to volunteer there I was so nervous when I went for the interview I had struggled in so many interviews in the past and I was worried I wouldn’t get it , but I was delighted when I got the letter saying I had got in, my first day I was so nervous but I meet Jeanette and she was so nice and friendly. I then had my induction and training course which I enjoyed and started off as a receptionist two days a week.

In January my new line manager Bonnie and I was nevors when I first meet her but she was so nice and friendly and recently during my 2nd battle with depression she was so nice and friendly and has Been so understanding has helped me so much with my depression. My boss Nicola has been so nice and has put so much trust in me.when the IT session was short and they trusted me to teach the IT session and I really enjoy teaching the IT I enjoy teaching the elderly how to use my social media and using their phones ,tablets and computers and I enjoy working with Nick and Howard.

I get on so well with the ladies in the office Gaye, Karren and sam they are so nice and friendly and kind, I also get on so well with the CEO Sharron and the deputy CEO Lisa I enjoy talking football with Sharron and we both like the stand up comedian John Bishop. I recently put a proposal and they have been so supportive about this idea.

I do enjoy volunteering so much I have really came out of my shall since I started to volunteer at CVST and the staff there nice and friendly and I really enjoy being there they have all been so understanding about my mental health issues and have supported me. You follow can follow my adventures on social media on instagram at jakehumphries14 and on Twitter at jakehumphries1 thank you so much for reading this blog

Anthony Joshua

I’ve spoken a lot about my mental health experiences and issues and I’ve also spoken about my mental health peer support group that I hope to launch so I thought I would revisit a blog post series about celebrities and sports stars so in this blog post I will talk about my favourite boxer Anthony Joshua.

I first came to know of Anthony Joshua during the London 2012 Olympics I use to watch the odd boxing fight when I was younger but wasn’t a big fan,I was impressed with Anthony Joshua skills and personality and was so happy watching him in the Olympics and I started to follow Anthonys career.I watched his first professional boxing fight on sky Sports and use to follow Anthony’s Pro career closely, but when Anthony fights got moved to pay per view I use to follow his fights on the radio. But when I started to get some money in I use to watch the his fights on sky box office . But when I was on the mental health ward suffering from depression I had a borrow another patients radio to listen to Anthony vs  Dominic Breazeale fight, and when he fought Eric Molina I saved some money to watch it on sky box office and really enjoyed the fight and was so excited when Wladimir Klitschko was invited into the ring to announce a mega fight at Wembley Stadium.

I know I had to attend Klitschko fight so I looked at all means of getting a ticket to this fight and I was so delighted when I got two tickets to the fight and i took my dad which was also his first boxing fight, I had never been to a boxing fight before and was so happy this was going to be my first. And I really had such a great time the atmosphere was electric and the fight was incredible I left Wembley delighted with my first fight.During the fight I was walking round the stands at Wembley when I saw a stall selling official signed Anthony Joshua gloves but my dad wasn’t keen on me spending that much money on it but then i saw a leaflet for an evening with Anthony Joshua where you could have a chance to meet him and have your picture with him so I didn’t spend a much at the fight except for a drink and a programme and I save my money to attend the event and I had a fantastic time Anthony was so friendly and nice and th picture is on proud display on my bedroom wall.

I then followed Anthony’s new closely for news on Anthony’s next fight and I went to the Carlos Takam fight with my two best friends and enjoyed going to the fight and enjoyed travelling down to Cardiff with Ben and his dad and enjoyed the weekend trip,I always follow and like Anthony’s social media and follow it closely. I type Anthony Joshua into google regularly for his next fight news and about him in general and I’ve already planned to travel to his next fight against Joseph Parker and hope to get a ticket.

I really would to thank Anthony Joshua for getting me into boxing and I think he is a true and amazing champion and I credit to boxing and the uk, he has a great personality and when he was up for bbc sports personality of the year I voted for him 5 times. I really enjoy attending his fights I’ve had a good time with my dad and then with my best friends, i would be so greatful for Anthony to read this blog.

You can follow my social media adventures on social media on instagram at jakehumphries14 and on Twitter @jakehumphries1 thank you reading this blog.

Announcement on my project

Hello

As I’ve said in my pervious blog posts I’ve got a project I was going to announce and I’m delighted to announce tonight part of my project tonight. I’ve been emailing and talking to loads of people about launching a group peer support group for people with all different types of mental health issues.

The project will launch locally in my local area of Tendring which includes clacton, Walton and Frinton and I hope to help a wide range of mental health issues, i belive a group like this could be a great benefit to the local community and could help people that are struggling to gain confidence and gain support from each other. I had a great meeting with the charity I volunteer and it was so productive and a lot was gained from the meeting. I Also have another meeting with a mental health charity In a few weeks which I hope to announce a tie in with them and that would be great to help launch this peer support group. I would be so greatful if you or anyone you know or live in the Tendring area could and suffer from mental health issues could please fill out this survey the link is at the bottom of the page.

I hope to announce in a few weeks a launch date and more details on my mental health peer support group and I’m delighted that this project has taken off in small space of time also you can follow my blog posts and my activities on my social media on Twitter at jakehumpries1 and on instagram jakehumphries14.

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family

In a previous blog I talked about my great friends but I’ve never really spoken about family so in this blog I will talk a bit about family and how they have helped and sharped me so far in my short life.
I was born in 1995 and my mum is called Angela I won’t talk about my so called father because his played no part in my life and isn’t a very nice man so I won’t talk about him in this blog because I was raised by another man called Nigel who I call my real dad I will talk about my real dad Nigel later in this blog.i also have a older sister called Lois and Mitchell and a step sister called Jorja

So I was born and raised my mum Angela and for a part of my life was an amazing single parent rising two child’s by herself which I’m so proud of her to this day. She meet Nigel through a friend when I was between 5-7 and he was so nice when I meet him and they married a few years later but before they married they had my brother called Mitchell. Nigel was a true man a and raised me and Lois like his own kids and has never treated us any different from Mitchell and in my eyes is my real dad he took me to my first boxing match the Anthony Joshua vs Wladimir Klitschko and I enjoyed every moment with him.I did have a period of my life when I wasn’t speaking to my mum and dad and I regret every moment of those sad few years and when I was in hospital they keep and saw me and took me home and ever since then we had some good moments and they have been my rock in terms of helping me through my mental health and helping me through life and I enjoy going to Arsenal matches with my mum . I Have an amazing Nan who has taken me to so many events and taken me to loads things like my first Arsenal game and taken me to ride trains which I loved to do when I was child and took me to the the doctor who experience in London and I’m so greatful to her for many reasons.As I’ve said I’ve got an older sister called Lois who in recent months are relationship has improved but I know she loves and cares about me and a brother called Mitchell who has always made an effort with me and he plays football and I use to enjoy playing football in the back Garden and playing Fifa against him.

I have an amazing cousin called Stacey she has only recently came back into my life and she is always there if I need her and I enjoy texting her and love when I get to meet her on her lunch break.i also have a great relationship with her dad and my uncle called Gary and he has been so good to me and I enjoy when I go stay down his and going down the pub with him and playing pool with him.

I have so many good memories and experiences to long to share in this blog but my family have always been there for and I will always be grateful for their love and kindness and thank you for reading my blog you can follow my adventures on instagram at jake Humphries 14.